The weekend was good. Went back to my gf's hometown as her sister is around. Had good dinner in one of her cousin's hse. Reached her hometown about midnight. Luckily my gf is able to drive as i was tremendously tired. i pulled over at a gas station, and she drove the other half of the way.pity her!

As soon as i reached, took my shower and slept. Woke up at about 11.30 am. Took breakfast without brushing....had a wonderful instatnt noodle. Just imagine, a packet costing RM2...for an instant noodle. Took shower....and then had lunch. No wonder i am fatter these days.

Watched some cantonese series, half way thru was really sleepy. Took a nap...and guess wat...woke up and have dinner!! Gosh all this non-stop eating. When i was at dinner, i played with my gf's nieces. Gosh they are really cute. Wish that god is willing to give me those someday. Hopefuly there is a chance for this....this is a privillege that i do hope that god would not take away from me.Felt like crying at that particular moment....luckily managed to refrain myself.

Anyhow, reached home nearing midnight.was able to make it to the church in time...before it closes. Am still waiting for the miracle. My good friend sam, sms me chehcking to see how am i doing. Same old....same old.still waiting. May i have the blessings from god....and may the wait be worthwhile.

Went to church this morning to offer candles. then had breakfast with my gf and checked in my office at about 10.30 am. Not much thing to do today. Car industry is pretty bad. No customers calling....but i am not worrying on that.

I would end here at the moment. will post again tonite.

Today is a very good day. Did not work today. Took a day off to go for prayers. It was a last minute thing. My parents and myself went to St Peter's church at Mallacca. We left home at about 10.30 am, reached there about 12.30 pm and directly went for prayers.This is because we are afraid that there will be too many people later on.

It was my first time to that church. it looks quite nice. According to my parents, the situation was well organised compared to previous years. When i was there, i bought three 6 footed candles. It was RM 15 per candle. The reason i bought 3, is for my good friend in indonesia (Sam Then), my girlfriend and myself. Actually, this is the first time i saw a 6 footed candle. The height of the candle is well above my gf's. Now, i am trying to imagine on how she is going to carry the candle around and also most importantly, how is she gonna light it. Probably need to carry her for her to reach the top of the candle.kekek......sorri dear....it is just a thought.

After lunch, we rush home.Reach home about 4.00 pm. Felt tired as have been driving the whole day. Went to the accessory shop to chit chat with friends.

Went to IKEA to purchase 16 boxes of candles ( 20 pieces in a box ).Wow...cost me a bomb, but i really need it for prayers. No regrets though. The reason i bought 16 boxes at a go, is because i am afraid that IKEA would run out of stock, as the stock that's left are all on the shelf. As i do not want to worry about the availability of the candles, i took nearly all of them on the shelf. The ones that are left are those that are broken. The stock would be arriving in the end of the month. Hopefully i got enuff candles to last me till then.

About yesterday, my client did submit his documents for the application of the housing loan. If it gets approves, then he needs to purchase some insurance policy and to assign that policy to the loan.....so that the loan can be paid off in the event of his death. It looks good.....as long as the loan can be approved, i would believe that he will take the facility from me.

Tommorrow, there would be a customer looking at BMW 320i year 2001. Hopefully my salesman is able to close the case. The economy is pretty bad at the moment. People are buying cars....but they are buying more on local assembled cars...compared to completely built up units...which are imported. As i am selling imported vehicles.....with this kind of market sentiment.....income earned is simply not enough. Anyhow, i do believe that....the lord will provide me my daily bread...so i've got no worries on that. okays...i gtg...ZZZZZZZZZZZ!!

Heavenly father, today is a very special day for me. Prior to this, i have always heard of good friday...but i have never taken the inniative to ask.....what is good friday all about? Lord, on this memorable day, i ask you...my lord for the miracle that i am looking for. Today, is the day that Jesus died to save the whole world because of your love towards the world. So my lord, on this historical day....i am knocking on your door....seeking for the miracle that i have been praying for.Save me from the sins that i have done and please forgive me whilst granting me the miracle that i am praying for. Lord....all that i can do now is pray, pray and pray.....nothing more....nothing less...please my lord.....save me and those who i care! In your name jesus, i am asking for this miracle.....AMEN!

Waiting is the name of the game. I am still waiting for the news, good or bad...just wouldn't know....but it is stressing me out. Today, i called up my friend who is interested to get a housing loan. Hopefully that i am able to close the sale today. Appointment is at 8.00 pm. Will be going there with my principal. Anyways, today i am feeling a little bit different. My hands are shiverring...probably due to stress.

Yesterday night, went to church about 9.15 pm, was hungry so....took my entire family for pizza. Didn't eat much during dinner. The pizza was great....

Came home and watched the election, a hong kong chinese show....reagrding triad society. Show wasn't that bad, and i am quite impressed with the cast that they have. Some of the top hongkong actors are there. Pretty cool. Anyways, i am a sucker for these kind of shows.

Work today has been pretty much the same, i am actually bored doing this. Having thoughts about moving on, doing something different.....maybe would want to venture into becoming a life insurance agent full time. This is because there are so many products to sell and the commission is justified by how much of sales one would close. Rather than a job which pays a person regardles whether he works hard or not. When i see people just hopping on the bandwagon where others work like a dog....it really pissed me off. However, i really do hope that these people would carry their on weight rather than having people to carry it for them.

Doing business is probably a good thing, but i ponder....what business to do? Any great ideas people?

As i did not manage to do a posting yesterday night, i think i better end it with a prayer now rather than later.

Eternal father, i would like to praise you for all the good news that you have given me so far. Also would like to praise you for the business opportunities that are coming my way. I really hope that i could close these sales that u have provided for me. Lord, i am sorry for all my past sins, each and everyone of it and am seeking for your forgiveness. I am waiting for the miracle to be granted, and i would repay the miracle that i am hoping for by helping others in the near future.It could be financially, volunteering works or any other form so that i could help in a way to touch people's life in order to help in spreading and rejoicing your name. Oh mighty god....please do not reject my prayers but please accept it and answer willingfully. Thank you my lord.....in your name i am asking you for this miracles....AMEN!

The weekend that i just had was preety normal. My brother's birthday was on the 9th of April. That day...was basically a family day. My parents, girlfriend and myself was out the entire day. We went shopping, bought some kitchen mats, bought present for my bro and some small stuff. Had dinner at Grand Blue Wave....it was a bbq dinner. Was quite all rite but the food was nothing to shout about. Again went to curch to pray..which has now becoem a routine in my life...which is great. No, i am devoted catholic....not yet that is. The matter of a fact is that i am not yet a catholic. But i am working towards that. I am supposedly to enroll for the RCIA classes before am able to be a catholic.

Simplesimon, thanx for the private message. Yeah...regarding the lighting of candles. I light candles as offering to the eternal father, lord jesus christ and mother mary. The reason i do so is because i am asking for something....something that is very personal and do hope that the miracle that i am seeking for can be granted. As what he has said...ask and u shall receive, seek and u shall find, knock and the door shall be open.i have been asking, seeking and knocking....and still am waiting up to today. But, i believe the miracle would be granted.....but a part of me also fear that it would not be so. Thats why...i am waiting and waiting....up to today.Not only that, i made a vow for my good friend...you know....the one where the wife went for an operation. So lighting candles for her behalf was also my vow.....as her operation was a success.Offering candles is like offering flowers or money.

But, i am glad that you have asked me this question....at least i know there is someone that is reading my page. i think thats all for now...would be doing another post later when i get back from work.

I apologise for simply being unreasonable. I am sorry for regularly providing you with mental stress. The only thing i can say for now is that i am really sorry. Apart from this, i am unable to do much at this very moment. I can only wait and until the day arrives....i am also mentally stressed out. I know that you are tired and probably you are already at your breaking point......pls don't give up. I need you to be around....no matter on what circumstances....good or bad. You really complete me....hence you are really my better half. You are stronger than me in this kind of things....please help me. At any time you would want to give up, look at god for strength, ask him for this strength.....ask him for the miracle.

I too, would want to give up.....but i keep thinking....NO...i need to be better.I also need to be sure. So i will wait and keep living until the final say is here. I will not give up in life...but instead would be cherishing it....every simple moment of it. I do have people around me that loves me, support me....all these are added pressure in a way. I am outright guilty....but i do know for sure....if i could be given a chance, i would be a slightly different person....concentrating on something that is of more value....

About an hour's time...it would be my brother's birthday. Happy Birthday BRO!! he is 6 years elder than me. Thought of buying him a birthday present...but after discussing with my girlfriend....probably gift vouchers would be good as it is pretty difficult to get him stuff. Coz if he doesn't like it....i get pissed off.

Supposedly to go for a massage today...there is a promotion...RM120 for 2 hours of massage. But, didn't have the mood. Supposedly to repair my girlfriend's car today.....but the person is not free. Everything is delayed.....sigh......

God, thank you for the daily bread that u have given me. God i do know that you do love us. At every intersection of our lives, we choose a "yes" or a "no" which simply determines our destiny. I have chose many "no" 's in the past.... mistakes that i would never repeat no matter what. i will not disown u...my lord. Lord, u have a heart that is rich with everlasting love for each and everyone of us.Lord, i know that you are always willing to forgive....no matter how great our sin.I would not take you for granted o lord.please grant me the miracle that we are looking for.All the vows that i have made will be done as promised. Please give me time. End result is the same - it will be carried out as promised! Thank you lord....in your name, AMEN!